shit i woke up late.dint turn up for amaths remedial. there goes my chance of gettin in to amaths camp. AAAHHH. nvm.i went for chem anyway. still sick,and coughing like shit now. after chem took 901 bus. lots of babes(ok some) from woodgrove. went home alone =(. leo n lio went to arcade. i stayed home n roootttttt
hey ashkie, yea, you're pretty much on point throughout your post. no self-control, guilt, shame, uncertainty, hidden reasons, doubts. everything, even if small ones, piles up together eventually and becomes too heavy to bear. and costed our relationship, which i probably shouldn't have went for when i wasn't ready. so many decisions that i made on a whim these past months which caused so much grief within the 3 of us. i definitely need to reflect and find back myself before i get together with anyone, be it with you, her, or someone else. i would have to get over both of you; right now at my current state, i would long for one if i'm with the other. i would have to learn to move on, learn from my mistakes and forgive myself too; not sure how i'm gonna do that, but i'll manage eventually. you definitely deserve better, not just me at my best, but also potentially someone else better too. you probably heard it a thousand times already, but i'm ju...
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